too much candy is gonna rot your soul..

so like merdeka is like today right?

have a good fifty malaysia.

altho i bullshitted bout why it is important to love you..
which i obviously don't very much...
i still think you have the best god damn food in the world..
but definitely the worst toilets..

happy 50th merdeka darlings..
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btw..please say hello to my FRATERNAL twin..

say hello jonathan!

shorty..you only LOOK taller cause i was bending...heehee...

happy birthday erwin..=]

wow..u sure look happy..i wonder what happened on your birthday eh?!

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so u noe like my birthday is like coming like up like really like soon and i really like like presents like you know and becos those of u who like actually bothered like coming back here to like read like all this like shit are probably people who like totally like care bout like me or people who like are like super like keh poh chi so like i think like those of u reading should like know i like presents like right?! like TOTALLY AWESOME!*squeals with bimbotic high pitched voice*

thats a lot of 'LIKE' in like one like sentence right?!

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heehee

btw i totally can't wait for trials to be over..

becoz it would totally mean

SHOPPING AND PARTYING BABY!

coz like the only shopping i've been doing is like online shopping ..

and we all know how much of a drag that is..

so i cant wait to go out!

and neways trials being over would also mean turtle finally gets to drive..

meaning lots of spending time with the smelly boy..

and also lots of 'quality loving' as ying xian puts it..

mentally and physically...*WINK!!*XP

pick up the phone, goddamnit..

i love ping pong and sunshine..=D

oh, for the love of....

you know i'm bored when i
-whine
-sleep
-whine somemore..
-blog
-sleep
-whine somemore..
-blog

yea..

i need some retail therapy..unfortunately i am broke..

and so..i shall tell u all a joke..
it goes like this...

once upon a time..a baby girl was born..
sixteen years, ten months and twenty eight days later..
this girl sits in front of a computer,
counts the days since she's been born
and whines about how bored she is..

the end..

now laugh..
ur readin the biggest joke of my life..

....

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

okay i need to go crawl into a corner of my bedroom and whine to myself that my life a joke..

XOXO
maymay

so i got back right..and like totally passed out..

such an absolutely uneventful day..

its been a couple of bad days for me..
things have been rocky with my turtlee.
trials are really testing my patience..
family has been harsh..

i need sum sort of uplifting force..
so that i can settle down..
and relax..

ugh...i cant wait for college..
really tho..

tell me i'm a bitch..
but i really cant wait to get my freedom away from all this shit..
its not right for a lil girl be locked in a cage submerged underwater with limited oxygen..

oh god this is so random..
i really need sum rest...

i noe i am so boring!

XOXO
maymay

bored already..

heehee..welcome peeps!
as those of u who actually bother reading this would probably know..
i got pretty itchy backside and decided to change to a new blog..
its not a big deal..
just needed a change.

my granddad passed away last friday.

in case u wanted to go.."i'm so sorry to hear that.."
u dont have to..cause i'm most certainly not..
don't get me wrong..i loved my granddad very much..
he was a granddad i just never really got to know..

he was however diagnosed with parkinson's disease ten years ago..
if u could do the math...i was seven..

but anyways..surprisingly..i din cry much throughout the funeral..
considering the fact that i cry over everything..
i would have to say i feel pretty ashamed of myself..

the only time i cried was when i saw my dad cry..
to see even the strongest of man cry..over his father's death..
it proves how strong an effect death casts upon us..

and that makes me wonder once again..
is death really all that scary tho?

why do we fear it?!
cry over it?
avoid it?

is it the fear of not knowing what will await you?
or the fear of leaving behind all that ever mattered to u?

i always feared death..
since young..
but i don't get it why..

is it because i'm scared of the pain?
cause that would be pretty illogical..
if ur dead, how would u feel anymore pain?

maybe its cause i always thought about heaven and hell..
i know i have low chances of entering any kind of heaven..
i'm kinda worried about burning in the flames of hell for eternity..

but thats another question of mine..
how does anyone know how heaven or hell looks like?!

no one lived, or perhaps in this case, RElived to tell the story.

so how do we know for real?
do we jus ACCEPT it blindly?
all in the name of faith?
and quench our thirst for the truth with a lie?

or do we question on further..
only to realise that our efforts are of no use..
that we ask the questions that has no answers.
and ponder the mysteries that has no explanation?

i guess i'm rattling on again..
true to my bullshitting nature.

maybe its due to the lack of sleep..
i have after all been gettin only 4 hours of sleep for the last two weeks..
of course..in comparison to many other 'hardworking'
*coughKIASUcough* people, 4 hours is heaven..
but for a pig like myself..4 hours is hardly enough..

i think i'll take a nap now..its 3 in the morning..
i'll have to wake up tomorro morning at 7 to start the parade of my grandfather's body to the burial site..

leave a comment if anyone even VISITS this place..
i need someone..anyone to acknowledge my presence okay?
i am an attention seeking child..do not be so quick to judge.

loves to all..

XOXO
maymay