its mayee, bitch...

i'm so sick and tired of blogging larh...

no one reads anything..u jus look at the fucking pictures...

scanning thru once in a while to see whether i mention ur fucking names or not..

then u dont see ur name?..u just come and complain to me..

not a fucking soul leaves a fucking comment..

i'm so full of anger right now...

i can feel fire in my veins!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE ANYWAYS!!!

u SICK AND DERANGED BITCHES!!!!

honestly..its so FRUSTRATING having all these thoughts i can't seem to pour out!!!

fine..for ONE?!?!?!

i'm not a fucking materialistic brand conscious HO okay?!?!?!

yes..i like shopping..

yes..i like fancy new things...

yes..these fancy new things seem to exist in fancy and expensive storess...

its NOT MY FUCKING FAULT I LIKE THE FINER THINGS IN LIFE!!!...

its not as if i dont wear cheap clothes as well!!!

i dont JUDGE the things i buy from the price i pay!!!

i take into te consideration the SATISFACTION IT GIVES ME!!!

and yes...so a new pair of NINE WEST heels give me a LOT of satisfaction!!

not that i stick them up my ass and masturbate with them or whatnot..

i meant just wearing them and feeling AND looking good in them..

SO WHATS WRONG WITH THAT?!?!?!?!

not to say i dont wear things from BATA!!..

or NOSE!!!...

so i like a NEW BAG!!!...

not larh like i go shopping at LV EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!...

can't a girl just HOPE?!?!?!?!

does THAT label me as BRAND-CONSCIOUS!?!?! MATERIALISTIC?!?!?!?

i sure dont THINK SO!!!...

u noe what MATERIALISTIC MEANS?!?!?!

WHAT BRAND CONSCIOUS MEANS?!?!?1

its means buying a T-SHIRT that says..

GUESS...

that costs RM 200 !!!!

or one that says..

i love fcuk..

that costs RM150!!!

THAT IS FUCKING BRAND CONSCIOUS...

THAT IN FACT...

IS FUCKING STUPID!!!

ur paying these fucking smart people TONNES of money to advertise FOR THEM!!!...

OR OR!!!

the BEST one..

i saw this lady...

wearing a T-shirt..

that says.

in BRIGHT BOLD LETTERS..

DIOR

just four simple words...

printed on a T shirt...

and guess how much it cost her?!?!

NEARLY RM 500 bucks!!!

i could print the same damn shirt for her for less than RM20...

but no...

she goes and splurge on that shit..

and wherever she goes..

the first thing people will say is..

"WAH...sure fake one.."

THAT is brand conscious...

and yet its fuckers like THAT who have the NERVES to call me MATERIALISTIC...

Mr Chia once said to me...

are u a normal person living in weird world?

or a weird person living in a normal world?

i honestly began to really wonder..

i'm going off now...

good night..

california in the summer...

i don't know what to say...

everytime something comes to mind..

it feels too confusing to put into words...

the only that comes out clear..

is that..

i miss my friends..

not so much school..

cause i don't miss school...

i miss my friends...

all of you...

you know who you are..

i miss the ones i didn't miss back then..

the ones who were so sincere whom i turned my back against..

i feel like a bitch..and for once in my life..i'm not happy about it..

this is a public apology..

to all my girls...those who were always there for me...supporting me..telling me i'm good enough..loving me...

those who stayed close to my heart for a year..but kept me in theirs for the rest of their lives...

i'm sorry i didn't tell you girls how much you all meant to me..

i wish you could read this...and know...i'll ALWAYS love you babis..

and you'll always also have a place in my heart...

lynn..cheryl..kheisze..peggy..joanne..audrey..magdalene..caryn..huizhi..xinhui..alina..steph..yingxian..jane..grace..weijing..zhareen..anita..kuya..jia wen..liyin..hwee ching..fardina..and many others...i can't even keep track..

most importantly tho..sarah chan..whom will always be among the people who hold the highest priorities in my life...whom i've often neglected or taken for granted..

i'm sorry girls...

i honestly wish things had turned out differently..but i guess we all take different roads in life..

i'm just glad i met you all at the crossroad of our lives..

call me out for drinks soon okay?

i know the perfect place..=]

love..

maymay

i miss you..always have..always will..

now that we are all parting ways..i wished i said this to you all sooner..

girls..i miss you..i might not have showed it much..but everyday i wish i could go back to the days where i could talk and laugh with all my heart and know that you will always love me..no matter how annoying it gets..=]..

i just want you to know..in simple words..that i love you guys to bits..not for any reasons..just because..you love me too..

i wish you three the best of luck...alina..who has already left for pahang...xin..who will be leaving for JPA..and dina..whom will be going somewhere so far away..i might not see again...

i'm so sorry it took me this long..but i miss you all..every single amoeboic orgasm-loving cell in my fucking body..and i swear i'll never stop..

good luck in everything girls..don't fuck up whats been given to you..i'm sure you'll all be the human-cutting loving surgeon, the cry-everytime-the-dog-dies vet and sexy judge-fucking slut lawyer i know you all will be..

remember to give me discount in the future..=]

lots of love bitches...

maymay

HAHAHAHAHAHA

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i love u guys larh..

god i look fat..=D