i miss you already..i'm so sorry..

over the next few days..i'm very sure everyone will be seeing loads of blog posts about the same as mine..


who could possibly deny the effect you have imposed on our lives..


who could not miss your presence and your joy..


i'm going to miss you fardina fuad..


fardina fuad whom i shared my life with for the past three years...


fardina fuad who will ALWAYS always have a place in my heart...i swear no one else could possibly touch nor reach...


all the times we shared..

a)sex-talk in class..


b)me biting your arm and u slapping my head..


c)AMOEBA!


d)ishak's tuition


e)break-ups and melt-downs..


f)me annoyingly whining about my significant other and you just zoning out and highlighting sejarah textbook..


g)both of us seeing each other EVERYDAY in school and EVERYDAY after school for tuition...


h)going to get our prom dress clothes and beads and shit and ending up in YOU gettin a completely different colour and ME a completely different dress...


i)i-love-henry-so-much-i-could-lick-his-nerdy-stick-of-wonder!


j)me teaching you how to say FUCK in the ten different languages..

eg. english : FUCK!

malay : BABI ENGKAU!

chinese: TIU LEI!

tamil : FUCKERPURENGGEI!

thai : WADDAFAKAP!!!!

french: Le FUCKZ!!

italian: FUCKERONI!


k)dealing with SPF..nuff said.



l)'selamat sejahtera pn saik-O!!'



m)'DO NOT INTERRUP MY TWAIN OF TOTS!!'



n)'i hope the lizard will SHIT into his big mouth!!'



o)listening to your cheer rants..and helping you with your cheers...=]



p)discussing 'THE BUNNY'



q)classic....SINS TO MY EARS!!!/EYES!!!!


r)planning the afterparty and having the world tell us we can't do it and proving them wrong..


s)i laugh till thw whole school hears me and u and xin and lina try your best to make me stop...


t)singing in class...doesn't matter who listens..we jsut sing..even tho we suck...


u)playing stupid games in class with xin and alina like think of words which starts with the previous wrd's last letter...hahahahahahha..



and through all these times you stuck through...


through my lastt two years..you held my hand along with xin and lina..


you held on so tight to let me know i'm not alone..


so i'm gonna hold on to yours too dina..


i never really told you how much you meant to me...


i never really thought i had to...i thought you would know...


i thought i had more time with you..


i took for granted that you would be around...


and now i'm jsut going to say it..

dina..thanks for everything...

friends like you...don't appear very often..

and when i look back at my life in DJ...

my two years spent with you with xin and lina...was better than my five years with anyone else..

except siang lar of course...=D

you might not know it..but i wouldn't have been able to live through the two years without attempting some form of suicide without you and the girls...

i'm going to miss you dina...

and i'm going to regret for life that i didn't put in more effort with you..

but i will ALWAYS always keep you in my heart..

so one day...when they are little may ee's running around..[no hope for world peace by then]

i'll tell them...this is aunty fardina...she changed my life...she makes people smile..and she makes me laugh...

and yes...when i do get married..i'll tell you in the back of the car..=]

this is what we were all about...

i hope all goes smoothly for you...

be the hot sexy boss fucking lawyer who kicks ass and sucks money that i know you will be...

i might be coming to US anyways...so who knows? might just see you there!!!=D

i love you dinabanana...have fun and take care...hope you like your present..=]

so i'm back..miss me?!

so i decided to sort of hide my blog for a while because my dad found it recently..

and any dad wouldn't be proud of this daughter's language..

now that everything should probably be forgotten..i'm reopening the blog cause i've got some things to say...

first off...

happy birthday karate monster!..=]

i hope u liked your present...i worked hard..=D

secondly...

i REALLY need a rest from all this SHIT that has been happening..

i really do not give a flying fuck...[however do inform me if u ever found out how to fuck while flying]..about all of ANYONE's drama...

you might have the misinformed mindset of thinking that i might actually give a damn about all this shit..

but i dO NOT!!...

i do not WANT TO CARE!!! DO NOT WANT TO BE DRAGGED INTO IT!!..

and i therefore BEG U...ALL OF YOU to just let me stay out...

i also BEG YOU..to LEAVE my BF out of this as well becoz i have had ENOUGH...

yes..i do not have the courage and strenght to confront each and every one of u..

i need to save up all i have left to get through this weekend...

i do not have the energy to face anymore of this...

i cannot afford to lose anymore friends...i'm losing one already...

so please...i beg u...hear me out and leave us alone....

i just need some time...

thank you.

the worst kind..

so anyways..i know i've not been bloggin much..

i guess i have been busy...

so i'll just let the pictures speak for themselves..=]

after all..i am a lazy lazy girl...

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28th of May...

its not hard to notice our presents..=]

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outing with my babies...

the first two was from the disastrous night before we went to cocobanana...

and the next three were from our bangsar shopping escapade..=D

love the girlies..

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neways...i'm gonna go catch up on my sex and the city marathon..=]

love u cunts...ciao.

its mayee, bitch...

i'm so sick and tired of blogging larh...

no one reads anything..u jus look at the fucking pictures...

scanning thru once in a while to see whether i mention ur fucking names or not..

then u dont see ur name?..u just come and complain to me..

not a fucking soul leaves a fucking comment..

i'm so full of anger right now...

i can feel fire in my veins!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE ANYWAYS!!!

u SICK AND DERANGED BITCHES!!!!

honestly..its so FRUSTRATING having all these thoughts i can't seem to pour out!!!

fine..for ONE?!?!?!

i'm not a fucking materialistic brand conscious HO okay?!?!?!

yes..i like shopping..

yes..i like fancy new things...

yes..these fancy new things seem to exist in fancy and expensive storess...

its NOT MY FUCKING FAULT I LIKE THE FINER THINGS IN LIFE!!!...

its not as if i dont wear cheap clothes as well!!!

i dont JUDGE the things i buy from the price i pay!!!

i take into te consideration the SATISFACTION IT GIVES ME!!!

and yes...so a new pair of NINE WEST heels give me a LOT of satisfaction!!

not that i stick them up my ass and masturbate with them or whatnot..

i meant just wearing them and feeling AND looking good in them..

SO WHATS WRONG WITH THAT?!?!?!?!

not to say i dont wear things from BATA!!..

or NOSE!!!...

so i like a NEW BAG!!!...

not larh like i go shopping at LV EVERY FUCKING DAY!!!...

can't a girl just HOPE?!?!?!?!

does THAT label me as BRAND-CONSCIOUS!?!?! MATERIALISTIC?!?!?!?

i sure dont THINK SO!!!...

u noe what MATERIALISTIC MEANS?!?!?!

WHAT BRAND CONSCIOUS MEANS?!?!?1

its means buying a T-SHIRT that says..

GUESS...

that costs RM 200 !!!!

or one that says..

i love fcuk..

that costs RM150!!!

THAT IS FUCKING BRAND CONSCIOUS...

THAT IN FACT...

IS FUCKING STUPID!!!

ur paying these fucking smart people TONNES of money to advertise FOR THEM!!!...

OR OR!!!

the BEST one..

i saw this lady...

wearing a T-shirt..

that says.

in BRIGHT BOLD LETTERS..

DIOR

just four simple words...

printed on a T shirt...

and guess how much it cost her?!?!

NEARLY RM 500 bucks!!!

i could print the same damn shirt for her for less than RM20...

but no...

she goes and splurge on that shit..

and wherever she goes..

the first thing people will say is..

"WAH...sure fake one.."

THAT is brand conscious...

and yet its fuckers like THAT who have the NERVES to call me MATERIALISTIC...

Mr Chia once said to me...

are u a normal person living in weird world?

or a weird person living in a normal world?

i honestly began to really wonder..

i'm going off now...

good night..

california in the summer...

i don't know what to say...

everytime something comes to mind..

it feels too confusing to put into words...

the only that comes out clear..

is that..

i miss my friends..

not so much school..

cause i don't miss school...

i miss my friends...

all of you...

you know who you are..

i miss the ones i didn't miss back then..

the ones who were so sincere whom i turned my back against..

i feel like a bitch..and for once in my life..i'm not happy about it..

this is a public apology..

to all my girls...those who were always there for me...supporting me..telling me i'm good enough..loving me...

those who stayed close to my heart for a year..but kept me in theirs for the rest of their lives...

i'm sorry i didn't tell you girls how much you all meant to me..

i wish you could read this...and know...i'll ALWAYS love you babis..

and you'll always also have a place in my heart...

lynn..cheryl..kheisze..peggy..joanne..audrey..magdalene..caryn..huizhi..xinhui..alina..steph..yingxian..jane..grace..weijing..zhareen..anita..kuya..jia wen..liyin..hwee ching..fardina..and many others...i can't even keep track..

most importantly tho..sarah chan..whom will always be among the people who hold the highest priorities in my life...whom i've often neglected or taken for granted..

i'm sorry girls...

i honestly wish things had turned out differently..but i guess we all take different roads in life..

i'm just glad i met you all at the crossroad of our lives..

call me out for drinks soon okay?

i know the perfect place..=]

love..

maymay

i miss you..always have..always will..

now that we are all parting ways..i wished i said this to you all sooner..

girls..i miss you..i might not have showed it much..but everyday i wish i could go back to the days where i could talk and laugh with all my heart and know that you will always love me..no matter how annoying it gets..=]..

i just want you to know..in simple words..that i love you guys to bits..not for any reasons..just because..you love me too..

i wish you three the best of luck...alina..who has already left for pahang...xin..who will be leaving for JPA..and dina..whom will be going somewhere so far away..i might not see again...

i'm so sorry it took me this long..but i miss you all..every single amoeboic orgasm-loving cell in my fucking body..and i swear i'll never stop..

good luck in everything girls..don't fuck up whats been given to you..i'm sure you'll all be the human-cutting loving surgeon, the cry-everytime-the-dog-dies vet and sexy judge-fucking slut lawyer i know you all will be..

remember to give me discount in the future..=]

lots of love bitches...

maymay

HAHAHAHAHAHA

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i love u guys larh..

god i look fat..=D